no pain lasts forever .

im out $250.. no hotel party, no grad dress, and no grad guests. 

im the person you can depend on, but where the fuck are you when i need you? get me out of here..

i love having a job, but at the same time i hate it. i’m always so busy and so tired.. and its like i never get to spend that much time with you anymore. i miss you so much.. and your leaving in a couple days, so then im not gonna get to see you for that much longer.. sigh :(

:)

i’ve been eyeing soo much clothes from my store.. so yeaah, cant wait for pay day <3 :D

i cant.. atleast not anymore =/

this is exactly why i hate people. you told me i could trust you and that youd always be there, and you just.. disappeared. forget you, thats the last time you do this to me.

here you all come when you need something from me, but where the fuck are you when im the one in need? fuck it, depend on no one but yourself.

its weird how much the past still affects me. it haunts me to be quite honest. i keep being told to just move on, wth do you think im trying to do? do you think i like feeling like this? i try to be all smiles and cheerful.. but with one little reminder i just wanna crawl back into my room & stay there. this feeling.. its like a scar, and i just can’t get rid of it.